I'm an asshole

Hi, Readers! How are ya? I do not "write" usually because I have no special talent for it, but I had really wanted to write it down, so I did. I hope you all like it.

I am an asshole. This moment, as I can see, you need me the most. I am unintentionally letting you go. I spoke like that because the truth is I have to live, work, date, kiss, fuck, make love. Live. I have always been a great person who is helping everyone but myself. I do not want to abandon you. You are the person I love the most. For sure. But I just can’t. I can’t. I am weak. I cannot help someone this moment. I need help. I need someone to hold me, to protect me. Everytime I see you, Everytime I hear you, I know you need me, but I need someone too. I am too weak to help anybody. You are sick now. I have to help you, but who are going to help me? I feel guilty because you are the person who I love the most. Are you able to decry me? I am already doing this to myself. I hope for the moment when it will start to fade. This guilty. No one knows how much my heart is aching, how much my head is aching. I cannot leave you, but I cannot abandon myself. I have always felt empathy for everyone, but who does feel it for me? I don't know. I just (and unfortunately) got fucking lost. I have to find myself. I am sure I will never abandon you, but I have to help myself. I am a man with dreams and desires as everyone. I am an asshole.

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